Immy Chua

Just Being and Let things Happen….


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What is your biggest challenge in Life so far?

We all love challenge! We challenge ourselves to be opened to risk, change and innovation….we also keep reminding ourselves that part of moving forward in life is to continue challenging ourselves and our abilities!

I love challenge….I see everything as a challenge not as a problem. I wouldn’t  say I have difficulties performing this or that, instead I would  say I have challenging tasks which excite me rather than stopping me from doing it.

I challenge myself to become a female star engineer and I did stand up among the males as people noticed me! Just imagine when you are the only Asian female electrical engineer siting in the construction site cabin attending the site meeting with a group of Caucasians engineers, builders, contractors, architects etc. They remember your name compare to other male engineers and they respect and pay attention to you! How great is that!

I challenge myself to set up and manage a joint venture company in Chongqing, China in 1998 before I turned 30 years old. I was the only foreigner in the company managing a toll bridge across the mighty Yangtze River. The Chinese were very sceptical about my abilities and asked why the Malaysian company sent a young lady over representing them. I told them in Chinese 不是猛龍不过江, translate in English is “Non-Ferocious Dragons Don’t Cross Oceans”! I was there for 3 years by myself! Lots of fighting and politicking ….eventually I became very very Chinese and made lots of great Chinese friends who I still keep in touch with.

I challenge myself backpacking alone to the Northern China during the coldest season, went to Beijing to scale the Great Wall then to Harbin visiting the Ice Festival in -25 deg C then took the local train to Changchun then took a bus to Jilin.

I challenge myself quitting my well paid job in China and migrated to Melbourne, Australia without a job and just studied my MBA, because I wanted to feel like being a student again!

I challenge myself learnt skiing when I was 40 years old from beginner to intermediate in 10 days in Squaw Valley, Lake Tahoe. The next year I went back and became advance skier! The experience was priceless….

I challenge myself climbing the highest peak Mt Kota Kinabalu in South East Asia last May.

Because I love challenges so much…then I had cancer….I thought cancer was the biggest challenge in my life…..NO…it wasn’t…..The biggest challenge in my life was ….surrender…surrender…and surrender…

I surrender myself of not to be 110% perfect.

I surrender myself of being ok if I couldn’t deliver my work related projects on time.

I surrender myself of being ok if I was rejected.

I surrender myself of letting go.

I surrender myself of just being myself.

I surrender myself to The Universe and let The Universe guide me everyday……the results are mind blowing…..just expereince the bliss of “Beingness” ( an insight from my Aunty Bee)……

So, what is my next challenge????? My next challenge is Not To Challenge myself…..

What about you?

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Vitamin Qi

qiQi or Energy…it has no form, no color, no smell…you can’t see, you can’t smell, you can’t touch…..you can only feel….feel with your heart….it can make you feel extremely calm, relax and light but it can also make you feel extremely uncomfortable, emotional, restless……but don’t get it wrong, this is where the healing begins….

I believe in Qi but I never really get to experience the existence of Qi, because I had so much excuses not to learn, I was always busy with work, with shopping making myself pretty, with all those unimportant things in life, I had all the wrong priorities in life! Last April, my friend introduced me to Zhi Neng Qi Gong and I found Sheng Zhong and learnt from him. I wasn’t really practicing much as again set all the wrong priorities in life! Last November due to work stress, I started getting back pain and my swollen lymph nodes were getting bigger and harder….not a good sign!

I decided to try Qi Therapy, I contacted Sheng Zhong and had been seeing him every week since mid November 2012. He channeled the external qi via his body to my body, he also guided me to practice more Zhi Neng Qi Gong, how to visualise and merge with Qi, also practicing wall squatting. After 2 weeks of wall squatting (20 squat x 5 times a day) and daily Qi Gong practice, I started feeling the Qi

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Before meal

flowing within my body. Last Christmas when everyone was busy eating and drinking, I managed to reach 500 wall squat (200 in the morning + 300 in the afternoon) a day…..I was overwhelmed with the Qi reaction….I feel the Qi when I am sitting, driving, sleeping and standing….it was so powerful and amazing….and this Qi reaction actually made me feel extremely uncomfortable because the Qi went deep rooted into my skin, body, meridian and bone to heal the source of my illness…..it is like peeling layer upon layer of my illness, you feel better one day and the more I do the wall squat and qi gong then the qi reaction come back again and heal the next level. Only one and a half month….and the result is phenomenal from my CT scan results.

I take lots and lots of vitamins for my dietary healing to strengthen my immune and digesting system, before meal I take 4 pancreatin enzyme, 2 acidol pepsin and 4 probiotic to help my digesting system. After meal, I take 4 CQ10, 2 niacin (B3), 3 liver capsules, 8 spirulina, 10 chlorella and 2 megazyme forte. 3 times a day! I inject myself with B12 everyday for the past 2 years! You can do the math of how much vitamins I had taken for the past 2 years! In addition, the juicing and the enema and the rabbit foods…..lots and lots of time and love spending in healing my illness!

Dietary healing helped dissolving the tumor cells and restored my body’s defense system, this method is all about me taking control of my health and life. Lots of time, energy, money and efforts. I chose this method not because I have no faith in modern medicine; chemo, radiotherapy still cure cancer but I would rather take responsibility and control of my life than handed my life to someone else!

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After meal

Qi healing not only heal my illness but my life…..during the qi reaction…..I experienced lots of emotional reaction….it is such a remarkable journey..

Vitamin Qi is free and we all have it within our body….just do not know how to activate it and let it flows…..if you are interested…start with wall squatting. Warning…..only Chinese and Asian able to squat without any effort, because of our gene and ‘squatting toilet’! My late grandma who was 80 years old still used squat toilet!

My B12 injection!

My B12 injection! Fun of injecting yourself!

Happy Squatting!

Lots of love,

IMmy xxx


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How do you know when you are healed? Part 1

YarnAfter spending so much quality time with Cancer, I realised cancer not just known medically as a malignant neoplasm involving unregulated cell growth. Cancer is the product of years of accumulative unresolved emotional baggage deep rooted inside my heart…..it is just like a messy ball of yarn. I have many friends and friends’ of friends contacted me asked how I healed my cancer, when I told them to look deep inside their heart to search for their unresolved emotional baggage, I never heard from them. It is not easy to face the fear and unveiled your emotional baggage….because it is painful and painful and painful….lots of tears and tears and tears….this is what I mentioned in my earlier post about WHY NOT?

I was and still very fortunate to have a guardian angel guarding me to uncover layers upon layers of my emotional baggage, just imagine like peeling layers of onion…it hurts! This is when healing journey began….

My late brother diagnosed of leukemia when he was 21, on the 9 September 1993 (it was my birthday), he was in Ole Miss, in his final year of college. My dad went to Ole Miss for his first chemo treatment, first treatment was ok. During second treatment, he was admitted to intensive care. I went back to Malaysia, picked up my mom and went to Ole Miss. The moment I stepped into the ICU, I fainted. I had not seen him for almost 5 years, the moment I saw him, I couldn’t recognise him, he lost all his hair and he just looked like a sleeping skeleton! My heart was broken. When he woke up, he couldn’t talk we communicate by writing on a piece of paper. The first thing he asked if I was working there, he seemed expecting me.

I spent about one and a half month in Ole Miss with him. After the ICU, he was discharged and his condition gradually improved. He told me to go home as we still have 2 brothers back home. I left him, yes I left him and I never see him again…..He passed away on the 3 March 1994. My parents brought his ashes home.

I left my brother…this was the emotional baggage that I was carrying with me. I wanted to feel how he felt when he was alone overseas when he received the news he had cancer. I blamed myself that I left him! After 16 years, I made myself sick as I never forgive myself of leaving him. I punished myself! During the process of uncovering this pain, I came to realise this was the game that I had been playing with my brother…..again and again…My brother never blamed me of leaving him, in fact he was perfectly ok with me leaving him and went back to be with my other 2 brothers. Healing needs lots of unconditional forgiveness….I forgive myself of punishing myself for so long, I forgive myself of not trying to spend more time with my brother, I forgive myself of not being with my brother the moment he needed me the most, I forgive myself of making myself sick, I forgive myself of not forgiving myself……the moment I forgive myself, the healing began and after 3 months of unconditional loves from my parents…my tumor disappeared without chemotherapy, radiotherapy or surgery.

How do know when I am healed?…………When I can tell the story and it doesn’t bring up any pain….I finally realise I am healed….In fact, now I talk about my brother, I can feel him, he just next to me and look at me and tell me how much he loves me….


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Why we like to ask why ? Why don’t we ask Why not ?

Chuah Huan Bee is my dear Aunty, she told me to ask myself WHY NOT me who had cancer rather than asking why I am the victim of cancer!

When there is a tragedy or illness, we tend to seek for answer outside ourself because it is much easier and less painful….and we continue attracting the same energy again again and again.

Asking why is in denial! Asking WHY NOT is seeking salvation….the undoing of fear and separation……and the journey to the greater joining and The New Begining. This is my experience, what about yours?


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Higher Self…Lower Self….what about Middle Self?

Everyone of us want to be in The Higher Self but we always trap in The Lower Self (The Ego). My cancer journey helps me discover and nurture The Higher Self but The Lower Self keep pulling me off the track and trying to derail me! I think sometimes I fall in between…The Middle Self?

For those we don’t know about my exciting cancer journey…just a summary…doctors gave me a death sentence, I used diet (Gerson Therapy) to heal my cancer. After 3 months of intensive detox, juicing and vitamins. My bladder tumor gone and I am now working on my lymph nodes. This has been 2 years. No chemotherapy, no radiotherapy nor surgery!

The past 2 years I have been focusing on healing The Lower Self, which is my physical body, my tumor…as I believe we all do as we can feel, see and touch! Impressive results! Lots of hard work and dedication as Gerson is a very labor intensive ‘program’. My life changed completely! I feel like I am living in FEAR as I am unable to eat this, eat that! I have to constantly doing my coffee enemas, taking vitamins, juicing etc. My everyday work is juicing, eating, coffee enema and taking vitamins! This is now become my life…and I am ok with it! But inside me…I have the fear if I don’t do this or if I cheat then the cancer will come back! I don’t want to live in fear!

I started relaxing my diet…but still continue with the enema and juicing and vitamins when I feel like! Recently I have back pain and went for my 4 months review. I knew that if I told my oncologist, she was going to make a big deal and yes she did. She wanted me to go for a CT scan.

I am now moving from healing The Lower Self to The Middle Self then The Higher Self….I am practicing my mind to heal my soul….this is what exactly my blog is all about…healing the soul, the mind and the rest will follow…..it is a very big and brave step that I take…as we always fall into The Lower Self!

I am sick because I made myself sick! Why? Because I need attention! Who doesn’t like attention! I need attention from my parents, my family, my friends…..well….now I have all the attention and the healing start! Does this sound like you?

I started appreciating my parents and my family. I want to go home more, I want to spend more time with my parents and family. (FYI, I migrated to Australia and my parents are in Malaysia) I have a physical home here in Australia but my home is still HOME in Malaysia! I still recall when I attended my Australian Citizenship ceremony, a question suddenly popped up in my mind ” Where do I want to be buried when I die?’ My immediate answer is Malaysia!

I am sick because my body is not in harmony with my mind and soul….not in balance, just like the Yin and Yang. How to balance the Yinyinyang2 and Yang? Energy, Energy is Love, Love myself, Forgive myself and practice gratitude! I have been also practice Zhi Neng Qi Gong and I am now more sensitive and aware of the energy…it is so amazing and powerful….I can feel the energy ………just like I am the energy and the energy is me! It is just so peaceful and joyful!

So, am I gliding towards The Higher Self or I am still cruising in The Middle Self? or do I really care? as long as I am not in The Lower Self!

Would love to hear from you if you are in either The Lower Self, The Middle Self or The Higher Self?

Love,

IMmy xxx


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Friday Words of Wisdom – LOVE & FORGIVENESS

I believe Life is all about Love and Forgiveness! We always ask for more love, without forgiveness there is no love! Healing needs lots of unconditionally forgiving….that is the best part of my healing journey….I am not there yet as I am still learning to forgive….

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Have a wondeful weekend!

Love,

IMmy xxx


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Friday Words of Wisdom From Lovely Kids…

1. Never trust a dog to watch your food. 

2. When your dad is mad and asks you, “Do I look stupid?” don’t answer him.

3. Never tell your Mom her diet’s not working.

4. Puppies still have bad breath even after eating a tic tac.

5. You can’t hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk.

6. Felt markers are not good to use as lipstick.

7. Never try to baptize a cat.

8. Stay away from prunes!

Do you have any kid’s wisdom to share?



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Is your body under attack?

Do you know that our body is a fascinating living miracle comprises of living cells whose every part is closely connected to every other part? Each of its cell has its own intelligence and function in the total system. Our body also has several built-in defense system that keep our body in the state of homeostasis and keep us healthy and functioning! The Body Defense System is as important as The Country Defense System.

Let us explore this Defense System in depth!

The Immune System

The Immune System

When we are feeling well, we don’t give much thought to our immune system or what it does. Everyday our body are constantly attacks by germs, viruses and parasites that carry disease. The Immune System is the first line of defense which helps protect us from getting sick. I had cancer because my defense system failed to launch! Our body are made-up of extremely small units called cells. The Immune System too is made up of specialised cells and they are call immune cells.

Our blood is red because it contains red blood cells called erythrocytes (eri-throw-sites). However, it also contains white blood cells or leukocytes (loo-co-sites). It is these white blood cells that work as part of the immune system. Because blood circulates throughout our entire body, white bloods cells are present everywhere too. The places where the white blood cells are particularly concentrated are the lymph nodes and spleen, there are important because they are the sites which the immune system launches when you have an infection. However, the main basic component of the system is located in the bone marrow. B cells are made in the bone marrow. B cells produce special weapons called antibodies which stick to a pathogen and help the immune system to destroy it. T cells (helper T cells and killer T cells)  are made in the special organ near the heart called the thymus. Helper T cells help B cells to produce antibodies and also boost the ability of macrophages to attack pathogens. Killer T cells, are hit men of the white blood cells family. They bump off any cells that have been infected by a virus.

As all other parts of the organism, the immune system is made up of cells that needs to be nourished. They require a full complement of minerals, enzymes and vitamins in their natural form which is easily assimilated.

The Enzyme System  

Enzymes are the key to life. No enzymes, no life. We destroy all the digestive enzymes in our food by cooking and baking, and thus the body has to draw the necessary enzymes to digest this dead food from the body organs which in turn become unbalanced. All processed foods are also void of enzymes.

Digestive Enzymes

Our body must build it own enzymes since it cannot utilize the ones found in raw foods or animal products. In order to produce, the organs systems require specific minerals as catalysts.

According to researchers, the body needed potassium as a catalyst, while sodium acted as an enzyme inhibitor. Enzymes are destroyed at temperature 60 degree C, so the cooked and processed food unable to furnish the body with needed enzymes. So, if you have digesting problem, poor appetite, constipation, diarrhea and painful gas. There is a very high possibility that your body does not have adequate enzyme activity. The best way in getting the require potassium is from fresh fruits and vegetables.  In addition to fresh juices, pancreatic enzymes is also an integral part of Gerson Protocol. Pancreatic enzymes able to attack and destroy tumor tissue while digesting foods because they recognised tumor cells as ‘foreign” needing to be eliminated.

The Hormone System

Hormones are like chemical messages that control our body’s growth, repair and reproduction. Endocrine glands make chemicals called hormones and pass them straight into the bloodstream. Hormones, especially thyroxin and adrenaline, regulate the entire metabolism.

The thyroid is an important part of the immune system, it regulates body temperature, including fever. The immune system responds by producing excess heat, fever if the organism is invaded by germs or viruses. Germs, viruses and even tumor tissue do not tolerate elevated temperatures, which the healthy cells can easily bear. So, how to maintain the well-functioning thyroid? The answer is iodine! Unfortunately iodine is short supply these days. In addition, Chlorine in the water supply is able to remove it from the thyroid. Fluoride from our toothpaste, a dangerous toxin, is even more powerful in blocking this important element.

Other enzyme inhibitors include food additives such as preservative, colouring agents, artificial flavors and many others so-called food cosmetics, plus pesticide and other agricultural poisons in our food supply. The Hormone System is under severe attack!

The Essential Organs

Every part of the organs e.g. liver, the pancreas, the lungs, the kidneys, the heart, the brain, the colon, the bone marrow, the spleen are all the essential organs. In the course of healing, Gerson Therapy pays particular attention to restoring  the liver to its functioning as quickly as possible as it plays a major part in healing the body. The liver is the only organ in the body that is able to regenerate and regrow if parts of its are removed.  Liver is the chief organ of detoxification. We often heard cancer like to attack liver, because of the liver is under attack then it lose the function of detoxification.

Dr. Gerson discovered that there was a difference between chronically ill patients and those suffering from cancer. ” The chronic disease patient has a weak, damaged liver; the cancer patient has a toxic liver”. He also found that the cancer patient could not completely digest and assimilate fats and oils. These undigested residues were picked up by the tumor tissue, which grew and thrived on them.

The Mineral Balance

In order for our body to function well and keeps it defenses strong, the body needs a large number of minerals which can be supplied by fresh organic juices made from produce grown in rich soil. Dr. Gerson recognised that two minerals, sodium and potassium were mainly involved in creating mineral imbalance in the body.

Our diet used to be loaded with potassium rich natural, fresh, organic vegetarian foods. Yet, these days, our diet is overloaded with sodium, which the body must excrete. Excess sodium is an enzyme inhibitor. In light of all of these, it is easy to see why mineral balance is an important component of the body’s defenses.

IF I didn’t have cancer I will not know so much about our body’s defense system and didn’t realise I allow the enemy like sodium, proceed food, preservatives, fluoride, chlorine to  attack my body! We are so misinformed with the food we eat.

So, if you think you are under attack! Take action now!

Love,

IMmy xxx


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Friday Words of Wisdom from Famous Vegetarians

Some words of wisdom on vegetarianism from some well known people……

Mahatma Ghandi

Mahatma Ghandi

“The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated.” Mahatma Gandhi

“The Doctor of the future will give no medicine, but will interest his patient in the care of the human frame, in diet, and in the cause and prevention of disease.” Thomas A Edison

“I have since an early age abjured the use of meat, and the time will come when men such as I will look upon the murder of animals as they now look upon the murder of men.” Leonardo da Vinci

“Truly man is the king of beasts, for his brutality exceeds them. We live by the death of others. We are burial places!”  Leonardo da Vinci

Leonardo daVinci

“My refusing to eat flesh occasioned an inconveniency, and I was frequently chided for my singularity, but, with this lighter repast, I made the greater progress, for greater clearness of head and quicker comprehension. Flesh eating is unprovoked murder.” Benjamin Franklin

“Vegetarian food leaves a deep impression on our nature. If the whole world adopts vegetarianism, it can change the destiny of humankind.” Albert Einstein

Albert Einstein

“Until he extends the circle of compassion to all living things, man will not himself find peace.” Albert Schweitzer (received the 1952 Nobel Peace Prize in 1953)

“Anyone who has accustomed himself to regard the life of any living creature as worthless is in danger of arriving also at the idea of worthless human lives.” Albert Schweitzer

So, have you consider Rabbit Food in your diet?

Albert Schweitzer


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What to do When you don’t know What to do?

10 September 2010 around 9am, I was on the way entering to a meeting room then my mobile rang, it was from the clinic. My GP wanted to see me immediately about my biopsy test result. I told her I would see her after my meeting around 12 noon. After the meeting, on the way driving to the clinic, the car radio was talking about cancer, I was prepared as it was so hard to get an appointment with my GP and suddenly she was available to see me immediately. When I was in the GP ‘s room, she was very nervous, I asked if it was a bad news, she said yes, and told me the lymph nodes test result shown cancerous but it was secondary cancer ! I was very confused, secondary? She told me my cancer had already spread to my lymph nodes, and needed to find out where was the primary cancer. She looked at me and said ” You look very calm !” I told her that I was prepared as my brother had leukemia and he died of chemotherapy. She printed out the test report and passed it to me, I was overwhelmed with all the medical terms. Then she asked if I would like to go to public or private hospital, I asked for her recommendation and she recommended public hospital which was Alfred Hospital. I went to the car and rang my boyfriend, he cried. Then I rang my cousin Mei Qi, she immediately asked me to go home and she would meet me at home. Then I rang the office told my boss, Glen. Glen was really cute and asked if I wanted to catch up for a drink to talk about it! I didn’t go for a drink, but I could feel Glen was worried about me and was trying to help.

With my lovely Mei Qi climbing Mt KK May 2012

Mei Qi arrived not long after I got home. We were very calm, no crying or emotional feeling. We were like just handed an “IMmy” Project, Mei Qi immediately jumped straight on to the computer and started goggling all the medical terms. She read the test report and explained to me, what is carcinoma, CA125, CK20, metastatic, etc. She is such a loving and caring cousin! That day we both learnt so much about cancer. We kind of understood the report but didn’t know what to do next, as the report indicated the “Immunohistochemical profile in inconclusive in terms of tumor origin”! My Biopsy Report It was Friday and I still did not know when I could be admitted to the Alfred Hospital to see the oncologist. The next day was my company annual dinner, I decided to go and enjoyed myself. The moment I arrived, as usual our MD, Dominic greeted us at the front door, the first word he said to me, “Im, I know you do not have family here, we are your family!” It meant a lot to me.

I went to work on Monday, rang Alfred Hospital to check when I could be admitted, they told me a couple of weeks and they would send me a letter to inform me. A couple of weeks! How was I supposed to wait for a couple of weeks! I knew I have cancer but I could not get an oncologist. I was very emotional at work and could not really focusing and colleagues asked me if I was ok. Then I told them I have cancer but I could not get an oncologist and I do not know what to do! Gradually, the more people I told about I do not know what to do. One day, Roger sms me and told me his wife worked in Peter MacCallum and she knew many oncologists that she could recommend and asked if I had private health insurance. I rang Dr, Sullivan the next day and got an appointment the following day and he immediately admitted me to the hospital for bladder biopsy, PET scan, mammogram, etc to confirm the source of my cancer which was bladder. Then I received letter from Alfred Hospital.

So What to do When you don’t know What to do is to tell The Universe your challenge and you would be guided by The Universe ! That was one of the most challenging part of my cancer journey…..the unknown which lead to fear…..I want to thank Mei Qi for her love and support throughout my cancer discovery journey, I still recalled the day when I was hospitalized during my bladder biopsy, she was next to me on my bed and told me. ” Im Jie Jie (means sister Im in Chinese), I am sorry if I didn’t show any emotion about your cancer it is not because I don’t love you, but  I always believe in you that there is nothing you are unable to resolve!” I was so touch, cancer bring us closer then ever before!

Every morning when I wake up I will ask The Universe to guide me. Have you asked The Universe to guide you today?

Would love to hear from you What do you do When you don’t know What to do?

Love,

IMmy xxx