Immy Chua

Just Being and Let things Happen….


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Death Claim

About 2 months ago when I was in pain and couldn’t go to work and earn my income. I contacted my insurance to apply for my income protection claim. The gentleman over the phone asked if my cancer is terminal. I told him my oncologist said my cancer is incurable, so is it terminal? Then to my surprise he advised I should apply for Death Claim!

I was sad to hear this over the phone but then I told myself this is actually great for me as the death claim would help to lighten my financial burden so I could focusing on healing myself and love myself! How great is this? And who could actually eligible to claim this death claim when he or she still not dead yet! Then when I received the claim form, in order to meet the definition of Terminal Illness, my life expectancy should be less then 12 months! So, I get my oncologist to help with the medical claim form, she said for my case, the life expectancy of my bladder cancer is 18 to 24 months and I have ‘survived’ ( I don’t like the word survive because I am not surviving! I am living my life!) for 32 months and I should be able to meet the terminal illness definition as my ‘death sentence’ is overdue! I am very happy that my oncologist is helping me with the claim. As for me, I do not believe I have 12 months to live!

The only catch is I would not be able to be insured again as I have died once! But then, why should I need to be insured again? I am now waiting for my claim to be approved! Interesting!

As for my income protection claim, it has been approved and enough to cover my daily expenses so it all goes very well. For those of you who do not have income protection, I would suggest to look into it as income protection is to cover when you are total disable or partial disable not that you are jobless. Insurance is to protect your loved one and you.

Do not feel sad reading this post because I am lodging my death claim, the reason for my blog is to share my exciting cancer journey and this is just part of the exciting ONE!


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Do you know where you are going……?

I was once told by my boss that ‘If you fail to plan, you plan to fail! ‘ So, I was always planning for my life…..because of the fear of failure!

Now, I stop planning and trying so hard to be who I thought I wanted to be and the fear just disappeared and I feel exceptionally good with myself…..my health has improved and I am getting better and feeling happier each and everyday!

Just trust yourself as you would be amazed with how smart and wise you really are without trying so hard….

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Self_love = Selfish ???

IMG_0045We don’t like to be called Selfish because we believe Self_love is Selfish…at least this is what I always believe!

I was brought up in the culture of giving. Save and give the best to the younger and older. I was also taught not to be selfish. Since I am the eldest in the family, so I became a natural giver. So I relate giving is loving, you should give others first which means you should love others first? This is what I  always believe self_love is selfish!

Until recently my cancer progressed and I was in so much pain and couldn’t do anything then I turned more to myself and asked if I love myself? I also came across Anita Moorjani’s book Dying to be me and Sai Baba’s teaching, they both talked about the importance of self-love!

Self-love is not selfish as what I have been lead to believe! Self-love is to love yourself unconditionally, without judgment and just being yourself and live the life you want and not the life you think other people think you should be! Since I have not been loving myself unconditionally then I never appreciate my body that is why I have cancer! That makes sense to me now! Again, I made myself sick!

Again, cancer is a gift to me and this time the cancer progressed is even a bigger gift to me! I like to share good news, I was reluctant to share my latest health situation as I was not being truthful to myself. I was afraid people judge me and ask me why? why? why? I always like to prove I can heal the cancer and I have been trying so hard to heal the cancer because I told myself and to you all I can. This time the cancer progressed and I viewed myself as a loser! I disappoint you all! The Gerson diet is so hard, I am no longer follow as I was living in so much fear everyday thinking that if I cheat the cancer will come back and now it happens as the results of living in fear!

I believe learning to love, accept, forgive, value, respect, and take responsibility for ourselves in every moment of our life is the key to healing and transforming all of our emotional, physical, spiritual pain, illness, and suffering. Relating to ourselves with unconditional love, kindness, and compassion is the key to transforming and healing our past, and so it is therefore the key to consciously creating all that our heart desires here in the present.

I believe we were not born to suffer. Nor were we born to settle for anything less than the best in all aspects of our life. In fact, we were born to grow, to learn, to create beauty, to love wholeheartedly, to  live fearlessly and enjoying our lives to the fullest each and every day.

I also believe every one of us is destined to live as a unique, free, and full expression of who and what we truly are. We are destined to realize our greatest potential in this lifetime and consciously create a life that is deeply aligned with our own heart and soul. Each of us is destined to live a life that we truly love; one that is full of purpose, passion, consciousness, peace, joy, health, wealth and unconditional love for ourselves, for others, and for all of Life. Just being ourselves and live the life we want! This is what I am experiencing now! I used to think I would be very uneasy and bored if I am not working because I would feel useless! Now, first time in life that I really enjoy not working and just being and let things happen. My finance has been taking care of and I am now loving myself more and more each and everyday. (I will share more how by just being not doing my finance has been taking care of in my next post! )

I also believe once I love myself unconditionally then I would be able to give my love unconditionally, because we cannot give what we do not have! By loving myself unconditionally and stop judging and criticizing myself. My body starts healing because Love heals………

So, do you love yourself unconditionally ?

Sending you all unconditional love……..