Immy Chua

Just Being and Let things Happen….

Human ‘Do’ing

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It has been a while I disappear from here and I guess many of you are wondering if I am ok, well or still around!

I am well and happy!

I went for my holiday back home in Malaysia end of Jan and since I came back in March I have been living with pain. I was so in pain that I couldn’t think and do anything. My parents and family wanted me to go back to Malaysia so they could take care of me, but I chose to stay in Melbourne because I was worried about them worried about me when they saw me in pain! Same as here in Melbourne, friends have been trying to contact me and ask about my condition. I rejected their call and was avoiding them because again I was worried about them worried about me then stressed me out! Until my friend told me I shouldn’t think about them worried about me, I should view it as they care and love me! Then I feel so much better!

I was in pain for about 4 to 6 weeks before I decided to take pain killer and it really helps a lot and now I feel so much better!

About my health! I went for another scan in April, I was so impressed with myself that I have no fear with the results as I told my friend! He said well He worried more than i worried about myself! This is great! Once I told you all my worries then all the worries gone and let you guys worry about me! My results….good news that all my organs are clear! Not so good news my lymph nodes have progressed that’s why I have pain! Not the end of the world !

I have been reading a lot recently. Get to know more about Sai Baba. Also just finished reading Anita Moorjani’s book Dying to be me! Learnt so much from Anita to live fearlessly and just being me. Learnt so much from my Aunty Bee how to just being a Human Being rather than Human Doing! Guess some of you don’t understand what I am saying here!

Let me explain here. For the past 2 1/2 years, I have been living in fear! Even my bladder tumor gone after 3 months of Gerson Therapy, but my lymph nodes still there and I am unable to completely heal because I am living in FEAR, fear of not taking my juices, fear of not doing my enema, fear of not taking my vitamins, my injection, fear of eating meat and all those forbidden foods, fear of not having income to support myself…..that’s why my cancer progressed! I am grateful that the cancer progressed because it again brings me closer to ME…the real ME! I have been living my life that I thought I should be not what the real ME! All my life, I have been very competitive, very ambitious, proactive, persistent…..make things happen! I did the same with treating my cancer…doing this doing that! Since I was in so much pain and unable to work and stay home just relax and listen to me….and just let go and let things happen rather than making things happen….everything just fall into places….like my Aunty Bee told me just Being…..in the moment. Now my finance situation has been taking care of, don’t need to work as I received my income protection claim and government assistance! All these just by Being as friends help me with all the enquires and advice !

Now, I am living fearlessly, I am no longer fear of not having my juices, enema, vitamins. I eat meat when I feel like and eat healthy when I love to not I am fear of cancer! I still experience pain but manageable with pain killer not my preference! I decided to live in ambiguity, every day I am welcoming a new door to my life, I am excited with my new found life journey, full of unknowns
and more unknowns….just let go and live fearlessly and embrace pain! One day, when I open the new red door…you will find a happy, beautiful and cancer free ME because this is the REAL ME! Press LIKE if you like what you read!

We are Human BEING not Human ‘Do’ing! Stop doing and just BEING!

I will continue to write this blog as I have so much so share!

Sending you all unconditional love…..IMmy xoxo

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Author: Immy Chua

A day after I turned 42, I was diagnosed with Stage 2 Grade 4 bladder cancer….what a surprise birthday gift! 16 years ago on my birthday, my late brother was diagnosed with leukemia. He passed away after 6 months of chemotherapy. My doctors told me they were unable to cure me….as my cancer is an aggressive type. The statistic with chemotherapy treatment is 45% in 5 years. I refused chemotherapy because of my brother. So, I asked if I don’t do anything, what would happen? My doctor told me….if I don’t do anything, after 3 months, my cancer will spread to every parts of my body. I told my doctor, 3 months, I still have plenty of time to find a solution. So..I rejected the death sentence and went searching for solution……..My cancer journey start ….. This blog is about my exciting cancer journey which helps me to discover and reassess my life, my relationship with my family, my so-called career goal, my diet, my view, my belief…..everything…..for the past 2 years… I wish it will help everyone to look at illness as a blessing and opportunity to heal rather than seeing yourself as a victim.

7 thoughts on “Human ‘Do’ing

  1. I have missed you my dear friend… Welcome back! 🙂

  2. It is good to hear from you Immy, and I admire your attitude and inner calm and peace. You are totally right how you see this and I like just being like you ! You are such an inspiration to all of us! Thank you for your love Immy! Much love Ute xx

    • Hi Ute, glad to hear from you! It’s always happy to read your blog! You are such a magnificent being! You are full of joys and you bring joys to others! Love, Immy

  3. BTW a very heartfelt thank you and another nomination back to you for both of the awards that say what it means to me. http://wp.me/p2ML45-17C Thank you from my heart inside of yours! CK

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