Immy Chua

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How do you know when you are healed? Part 1

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YarnAfter spending so much quality time with Cancer, I realised cancer not just known medically as a malignant neoplasm involving unregulated cell growth. Cancer is the product of years of accumulative unresolved emotional baggage deep rooted inside my heart…..it is just like a messy ball of yarn. I have many friends and friends’ of friends contacted me asked how I healed my cancer, when I told them to look deep inside their heart to search for their unresolved emotional baggage, I never heard from them. It is not easy to face the fear and unveiled your emotional baggage….because it is painful and painful and painful….lots of tears and tears and tears….this is what I mentioned in my earlier post about WHY NOT?

I was and still very fortunate to have a guardian angel guarding me to uncover layers upon layers of my emotional baggage, just imagine like peeling layers of onion…it hurts! This is when healing journey began….

My late brother diagnosed of leukemia when he was 21, on the 9 September 1993 (it was my birthday), he was in Ole Miss, in his final year of college. My dad went to Ole Miss for his first chemo treatment, first treatment was ok. During second treatment, he was admitted to intensive care. I went back to Malaysia, picked up my mom and went to Ole Miss. The moment I stepped into the ICU, I fainted. I had not seen him for almost 5 years, the moment I saw him, I couldn’t recognise him, he lost all his hair and he just looked like a sleeping skeleton! My heart was broken. When he woke up, he couldn’t talk we communicate by writing on a piece of paper. The first thing he asked if I was working there, he seemed expecting me.

I spent about one and a half month in Ole Miss with him. After the ICU, he was discharged and his condition gradually improved. He told me to go home as we still have 2 brothers back home. I left him, yes I left him and I never see him again…..He passed away on the 3 March 1994. My parents brought his ashes home.

I left my brother…this was the emotional baggage that I was carrying with me. I wanted to feel how he felt when he was alone overseas when he received the news he had cancer. I blamed myself that I left him! After 16 years, I made myself sick as I never forgive myself of leaving him. I punished myself! During the process of uncovering this pain, I came to realise this was the game that I had been playing with my brother…..again and again…My brother never blamed me of leaving him, in fact he was perfectly ok with me leaving him and went back to be with my other 2 brothers. Healing needs lots of unconditional forgiveness….I forgive myself of punishing myself for so long, I forgive myself of not trying to spend more time with my brother, I forgive myself of not being with my brother the moment he needed me the most, I forgive myself of making myself sick, I forgive myself of not forgiving myself……the moment I forgive myself, the healing began and after 3 months of unconditional loves from my parents…my tumor disappeared without chemotherapy, radiotherapy or surgery.

How do know when I am healed?…………When I can tell the story and it doesn’t bring up any pain….I finally realise I am healed….In fact, now I talk about my brother, I can feel him, he just next to me and look at me and tell me how much he loves me….

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Author: Immy Chua

A day after I turned 42, I was diagnosed with Stage 2 Grade 4 bladder cancer….what a surprise birthday gift! 16 years ago on my birthday, my late brother was diagnosed with leukemia. He passed away after 6 months of chemotherapy. My doctors told me they were unable to cure me….as my cancer is an aggressive type. The statistic with chemotherapy treatment is 45% in 5 years. I refused chemotherapy because of my brother. So, I asked if I don’t do anything, what would happen? My doctor told me….if I don’t do anything, after 3 months, my cancer will spread to every parts of my body. I told my doctor, 3 months, I still have plenty of time to find a solution. So..I rejected the death sentence and went searching for solution……..My cancer journey start ….. This blog is about my exciting cancer journey which helps me to discover and reassess my life, my relationship with my family, my so-called career goal, my diet, my view, my belief…..everything…..for the past 2 years… I wish it will help everyone to look at illness as a blessing and opportunity to heal rather than seeing yourself as a victim.

9 thoughts on “How do you know when you are healed? Part 1

  1. Beautifully stated my friend! felt this in my in my core!

  2. What an awesome message you are carrying in this blog! I healed myself of severe osteoarthritis, and now I need to do the same with COPD and broncho-trachae-malasia. I do believe and know that our minds have such powerful effects over our bodies to make us sick or keep us well. I’m so glad I discovered your blog and I wish you the best in staying cancerr free.

  3. This is a powerful post. I have read Louise L. Hays healing and I knew it is possible adn believe it. Hearing it from you it is amazing as you are!

    • Thanks Ute! Everyone of us has the ability to heal, we are just too skeptical about our ability. I am still learning and wish this blog will help others identify their greatest potential….YOU! X

  4. I have just gone completely back and read all your posts and I am stunned. All the things in life we buy has toxins in them, deodorants and all other skin stuff, things we do not realise. You have researched a lot and it helped you and it will help other people. And I don’t mean just the diet and enemas, also what you say about the emotional state of the person. I keep hearing of more people who are diagnosed with cancer and I keep thinking of prevention. I found a redipe for making my own deodorant and I will have a try. You are giving a big insight into this and I thank you with all my heart. With my admiration Ute x

    • Thanks again Ute and thanks for visiting my FB page! I started with dietary healing and I wasn’t really paid much attention of my emotional state….just like the post about Miracle! I have this amazing guardian angel who I meet every month, we help each other to get back on track….as sometimes we get derailed with other distractions ! I did lots and lots of research and tried lots and lots of weird things as well….my friends still can’t accept the enema 😉 My enema times were the times I read lots and lots……;) As for the toxins we expose in our everyday life…not because we accept the way it is, it is because we are misinformed…..and we are too busy chasing our wealth and living our health behind…I am a very good example!

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